Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Remember Me.

A while ago, my mother admitted that she's slowly starting to forget things about Kermit. It's been six years. I tried recollecting my favourite memories of him, and I found it was a little hard for me, too. I mean, the memories are still there - his beautiful eyes during that short period of time when the car headlights caught him as we entered the gate before Papa or Mama dimmed them; him jumping onto the washing stone, putting his paws on my shoulders to get a better look over the compound walls; me singing to him - a few memories remain, but the details are getting hazy. I don't remember the exact colour of his eyes, I don't remember the weight of his paws, I don't remember what it felt like to have his head on my lap. It's slipping away.

Memories. What wonderful and terrifying things they are.

Off late I've been paying extra attention to the time I spend with people I love, trying my best to remember details that I know can be easily forgotten. Forgetting and being forgotten - two things I've recently come to fear.

There are so many moments in my life that I wish never ended. But now that they have, I try desperately to keep them alive in my memory. Little things keep coming back and it seems so important that I don't lose sight of them again. I wonder sometimes why I've started feeling this way. It comes and goes, but when it comes, it's overwhelming.

"Time takes it all whether you want it to or not, time takes it all. Time bares it away, and in the end there is only darkness." Stephen King.

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  1. AmmuJuly 2, 2012 at 12:38 AM

    "Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they're also what tear you apart." -Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (I think).

    I think one of my favourite quotes about memories and sharing and so on was from the movie "Shall We Dance", when Susan Sarandon is explaining to the detective she hires why marriage is important. I managed to find it on the net - here it is: ”We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things, all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed because I will be your witness'."

    So, in spite of the current lack of a husband, there is a sister here larger than life, who is more than happy to continue to be your witness always. xoxoxo

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