Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Dear Universe.

I should've known better than to enjoy a moment of happiness. And by happiness I mean pure, unadulterated happiness. After that weekend, I've been happier than I've been in a long time. And less than two days later, it's gone. Something just had to come up and squash my good mood.

I know nothing lasts forever, but I seem to be jinxed. Just when I finally decided to take an active step towards feeling good about life and myself, I'm made to dissolve into a puddle of tears. Don't get me wrong, I'm more or less fine now - part of my new 'feel good' approach to life. But it's such an interesting thought.

I mentioned that I may have started liking how miserable I feel. Did that throw around me an aura that invites unhappiness? If that's the case, then how do I let the universe know that I've had enough of this rubbish? Especially now, at the beginning of my battle against my emotional anguish addiction, I need all the help I can get.

So, I'd like to let the universe know that I'm ready to be happy. And I'm trying. If it could please refrain from disrupting my path to recovery, I'd be very grateful indeed.

"I see a little light, a little grace, a little faith unfurl. Well, hello world." Lady Antebellum, Hello World.

3 comments:

  1. Most times, when we're riding the high that comes with being really deep-down-clap-your-hands happy, it ends abruptly. And once you come off that high, everything looks staler than it did before.
    My two-penny bit? Instead of looking for "pure" happiness, it might work better to take happiness in smaller doses. In simpler ways.

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  2. No no, not looking for 'pure' happiness. It just so happened that it happened to be that.

    And this wasn't just a simple coming off the high. Remind me to tell you what actually happened next time we talk or next time you're online.

    Mwa.

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  3. Looking forward to hearing about it. And maybe I'm a little too pessimistic in my view, but you can put that down to my mind very lately being effed up.
    H&S

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